Almira Grace Galang Lapis. 15. A Filipino. Senior student studying at UPHR-Molino. A Lermaniac and a Belieber.JOE JONAS!
This has been a tiring day. From Cavite, we went to UST for dorm matters, then to SM North to buy some things then back to Alabang Town Center to watch Joe Jonas and then back to QC again ‘cause we’re sleeping here. And another busy day ahead!
Anyway, the Jonas thing. I almost did not see him! Sabi ko nga busy kami. Dapat kasi ngayon sila nagpunta sa Tri para di roundtrip. Anyway, since our mom loves us so much she really put in that much effort for us. So ayun. Saktong sakto kamo dating namin. Siguro kung di pa namin inusog yung bakal at pinilit i-park yung car dun, wala, di na siguro naabutan kanta niya. One and a half song lang e! Yung may title na ‘love’ at See No More! Tas puro interview na. Pero kahit mga ten minutes late, in fairness maganda view kahit madaming tao. Kitang kita kahit sa gilid tas ang galing nung binoculars! May superpowers. HAHAHA. Ayun, masaya lang. Sarap sumigaw ng ‘Taylor Swiiiiift!’. HAHAHAHA BITTER? >:D May sinasabi pa siyang fun run na 5km. Suuuus keri yan! 7km nga kinaya ko kahit na pahimatay at umiiyak na e. HAHAHAHA. Well that’s that. Waldas gas for Joe! :))))
PS/ will post pics on my FB. Next time! Katamad e HAHAHA.
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"The hardest part of saying goodbye is having to do it again every single day.."
-Lucas ScottWhen can you say you’ve had enough?
We all get hurt i know but it doesn’t stop us from doing the stupid things we do, right? Tell me, how do you know when it’s time to stop with something and let life be? :((
“Sana di na lang kita nakilala.”
Eto yung line na naiisip mo kapag naalala mo yung taong nakahurt sayo ng sobra. Syempre, gugustuhin mong hindi na lang siya nakilala pero isipin mo, kung hindi mo ba siya nakikilala magiging ikaw yung ngayon? Magiging malakas ka ba kung hindi ka niya pinahina? Tama lang yan. Life e. People come and go. It’s the struggles that make you strong. Be thankful, you may not know it and you may hate them but the people who bring you down gives you the chance to prove yourself.
Just because someone’s a friend, doesn’t mean they can’t hurt you. Remember, words can make or break someone and it’s your friends who can tell you the truth, honestly and no cherries on top.
Nahurt lang ako sa sinabi ng isang friend ko. I’m not mad at her. She speaks the truth. Eh kasi naman. Ba’t ka naman kasi magsosorry sa taong ginago, pinagtripan at minura ka? Hay Almiraaaa. :(( nakakaiyak ka. Meron pang iba, I know they’re trying to be subtle about it but I know what they’re implying. Hayaan niyo. We all go through phases of stupidity. It’s just a phase. A stupid phase. It won’t take long. Makakaget over din ako kay H at makakapagrevenge. He’ll be sorry, all right.
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I suddenly felt like crying.
OKAY OKAY. I ‘cyberstalked’ him again using a friend’s acct. And by ‘him’ I mean Heartbreaker/H. I couldn’t help it. I wanted to see kung may react siya sa nangyari sa DLSU-D. I wanted to get a clue to know whether he did see me or not. I went all the way back to his April stories. And I couldn’t believe it. He had a status that said, ‘Bakit kaya?’ and he fckng highlighted it. I was dumbstrucked. I posted something about him with the same title. I thought he read about it. I felt shock, fear, confusion, disbelief but I also felt a little bit of hope in me. For some reason, I felt happy. I so wanted to believe that he still cares even just a bit and that he checks up on this blog that I keep forgetting what he said. About everything being UNREAL. THE FRIENDSHIP. IT’S ALL FCKERY. Oo, masakit. Imagine falling for a person you know you never should have fallen for. It already hurts bad without him ‘implying’ that you were never friends to begin with. So I stared at it for a long time and almost convinced myself that he did read that post. I mean, why else would he post a status like that? And why would he highlight it? Masaya na e, then I saw my post and realized it was just 6 days ago. (And his was on April) Dammit. I need light K. So he was the first one. I swear I didn’t know about it when I made that post. Could it be a sign? Oh shit this, looking on the bright side can blind you. Like the sun. Anyway, I want this over with. Quick. Tama ka. Kahapon napapakilig mo pa ko pero ngayon sinusumpa na kita. Gago ka gago ka gago ka.
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Let’s play the truth game.
It’s times like this that I feel down about some things. Mind clearing my mind? Oh please talk to me, don’t make me feel so alone. Hahaha I know it’s melodramatic oh but let’s talk. :)))) TA or whatever? Let’s share secrets, but bet. us only of course. 1:18 here.
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‘Sorry, you can’t follow this user (because they’re blocking you).’
This shitty line Twitter had the nerve to show me. Buti pa facebook! Matino mag block. When someone blocks you in FB, you see nothing of him. It’s almost as if he doesn’t exist. Except the times when you only see his name. But at least you can’t click the link and see his Wall. You might not even notice someone has blocked you if you don’t care or pay attention. Eh twitter? Sasabihin pa sayong blocked ka! Masakit na nga, sasabihin pa. Bullshit. It hurts to be blocked by someone you care about. I know I said I hate him but I just wanted to be honest. There, I said it.
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RECAP!
So as always, I left this blog unattended for quite some time again. So let’s recap. :))))
May 14-16; WENT TO CEBU!
We stayed there for three days at two hotels. Shangri-La and Crimson, which is in Mactan. We enjoyed, naturally but I wish we’d gone to the city. Or I could have seen Zeey ( I became friends with her over twitter). Here’s some pics:
May 18; WENT TO DLSU-D.
I guess this part here is controversial. Truth is, I wanted to go there because Heartbreaker studies there. Stalker na kung stalker but I really wanted to see him. But I don’t think you can call it ‘stalking’ cause I went there FOR A REASON. I didn’t just go there to see him or what. I accompanied my friend there. Muntik pa ngang hindi makapasok but we made a way kasi I was really determined. Determined to look for H and punch him in the face. Seriously. I’ve never hated anyone this much. K fine, I knew I wouldn’t be able to do that but I wanted to confront him or whatever, at least slap him in the face. We found a way and we knew where he was so we were walking there and rain was slowly dropping on us and I looked to my side and MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT. I SAW HIM!! I grabbed my friend and pointed him but a car hid him from view (he was walking you see) pero nakita ko siya manalamin sa car. And I saw his face there. Yung feeling na tameme ka and you don’t know what to do. If it wasn’t for my friend I would have stayed there for a minute or two. Hinila niya ko tapos he suddenly turned! Oh fck that, napatago ako sa kotse. Pero syempre, nakita niya na ko nun. Tch. Baka kung anong isipin niya. Nakakapanghinayang lang kasi I let him slip away. I’ve waited long to see him and I wanted to talk to him or slap him pero wala. Nagpakatanga. NA NAMAN. Parang Intrams lang. Dafuq. I can’t believe I went that far just to watch him walk away without doing anything. Hays. Looking on the bright side, I could have easily missed him. Seryoso. Sa sahig ako nakatingin kasi I just jumped tapos napatingini lang ako bigla sa gilid. I wish I knew what he was thinking when he saw me pero I just have to be contented that I saw him. Kahit mga 3-5 seconds lang. I did not even see his full face. Well. I guess that’s life. US CAMWHORING:
May 19; ATTENDED A DEBUT. (A friend’s sister)
Swimming party ang theme nito e. It took me a while to decide whether I should go kasi classmate ng ate ng friend ko yung gf ni H. What if invited si GF and kasama si H. I didn’t have an idea if it was a social party with clubbing theme sa pool or what. Anyway, I came. It was awkward at first, mind ya. Syempre. And. I gained two crushes. I developed a crush on this guy (kasama kasi yung ibang liga sa Vallejo kaya maraming boys) kasi he reminded me of H. And Yana agreed, mentioning it twice. His name’s Theus. Ganda ng name no? Artheus daw ang buo. Grabeeee! He’s so hyper! Ginanap kasi to sa Circle Island Resort. May tunnel dun linking two pools, so syempre people will go through that. Tapos silang liga, iniisplash nila yung mga dadaan dun! As in, yung with super sigaw and hiyaw and all that! E ANG DAMI NILAAAA. Tapos si Theus talaga pasimuno, ayaw paawat. Kahit yung karamihan huminto na sa gilid, andun pa din siya, nagsisisigaw. Umaakyat pa siya dun sa bato sa taas ng tunnel! Tapos may tropa siyan nakakita ng walis tingting, GRABE! Dinala niya yun sa pool tapos yung walis tingting ginagamit niya pangsplash ng tubig dun sa dumadaan. KADIRI LANG E. HAHAHA. Pero laughtrip sobra! Mamaya naman may hawak na siyang dustpan! Buti di niya pinasok sa pool. HAHAHA. Sa sobrang saya namin nakisali na yung iba tas may pumapasok sa tunnel para kalabanin sila. HAHAHA. Grabe lang ang epic. :)))))) Natamaan ko nga siya e. Muntik or nasiko ko muka niya nung pasakay ako sa likod ni Yana. Galit? Nagulat ako sa aray niya. AHAHA. Pero kinilig. >:)))
Tapos the other guy. His name’s Patrick namin. Pero we call him ‘Ilag’ cause he looks like Rex Ilag. Only taller and makinis face. Ayun. Grabe makatingin yuuuun! Sa amin ni Yana. Nung una nga parang OP siya pero buti sa pagtagal nagsaya saya na rin siya. Pero ilang beses namin nahuhuli nakatingin. Sa bridge pa lang na wala pa siya sa pool nagkatinginan na kami e. HAHA. Basta ayun. Kahit nung may nagtanong samin kung pwede magpakilala sa kanya lang ako nakatingin nun. Yung tingin niya parang protective na ewan. Yung tingin niya yung tipong nakakailang pero kikiligin ka kasi tinitignan ka niyaaaa. :)))) Awkward but flattering stare. :”> It all ended at 4am. Supposedly 5am pero epal ang Circle, so ayun. Grabe lang si Theus, kahit paguwi di matigil. Siya kasi nagdala nung icebox tapos lapit siya kung kani kanino sabay sabi, “Gusto niyong balot, ate? Baloooot!”. Like that. Grabe lang. Hahaha. Oh and, my friend (Yung sis ng debutant) introduced me to him twice. Ang obvious lang! (Second time around, sabi niya, “..Kinikilig naman ako”). HAHAHA! Pero because of that, my throat itched like crazy and I developed a phlegm. And the smell of chlorine clung to my hair for two days. Ugh. Enjoyed it to the max thou. Obviously. :))))
May 21; WENT TO UST & TRI.
To get my uniform and Erika accompanied me. Yay. Also, we met up with bestfriend Ian. After four years! Last kita niya sakin, elem grad daw. Ako USTET, ninja nga daw ako e. HAHAHA. Watched Dark Shadows. Pero medyo awkward, tahimik medyo e. Laughtrip lang si Erika dahil sa mga trip namin. SM MOLINO LANG? :DD Adventures that day. I can still smell the chlorine in my hair that time, btw. HAHA. Yung mrt train sa taas ng pila namen sa van na nagiispark. Dafuq feeling Taylor Swift. SPARKS FLY. OMG HAHAHAHA. Pasaway si Best e. Hindi man lang sinabi san gate kami lalabas so we went to both ends of UST. Diff. gates, you see. Pero have to thank him, I realized. If it wasn’t for him di ko makikita si TOPY! Siya yung crush ko when I was in sixth grade and first year HS siya. Who would have thought crush ko pa din siya? Ang pogi niya pa rin kasi e. HAHA! AND OH, my friend deliberately bumped him. Basta he looked back and said sorry sorry. Nagulat din ako kasi saktong tinuturo ko kay Erika tas binunggo niya daw para matignan niya. DA MOVES! HAHAHA. And she also called out his name. HAHAHAHA DAFUQ. I could only hope that he recognized me. Oh well. And yung back and forth sa paghahanap ng masasakyan, the paikot sa line only to end up leaving it, yung cut-off samin ang van sabay ang tagal dumating ng next.. Parang ayaw lang kami pauwiin! HAHAHA. Tiresome but enjoyed it anyway. I missed Ian that much e, kahit si Erika ang naghug sa kanya. HAHA. Well. Paguwi, malicious si mother. Let’s end this here. I made such a long post. HAHAHA. :)))
END. :)
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Bakit kaya?
Bakit kaya pag may nangyayare sakin kay Heartbreaker ko gusto sabihin? Bakit hindi kay Best Ian o sa mga tropa? Eh saglit ko lang yun nakilala e, kinasanayan ko ba o gusto ko lang magkapake siya? Kaloka e. Nagago niya na nga ko nagagago pa ko sa ganto. Bat kay H pa? Kay H na walang pake. Kay H na wala naman daw friendship samen. Tae. Sinungaling ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ko na siya naiisip. Tuwing may mangyayareng masama, siya e. Lecheng H. Enough na.
